1. Shades of Beige: An Autoethnography on My Biracial Ontological Sense of Self
- Author
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O'Connor, Katherine S.
- Abstract
The purpose of this autoethnography is to take readers through the experiences of one biracial woman, me, as she tries to define her biracial identity and ontology from childhood through adulthood, traversing a racist, majoritarian world. From an early age, I have often wondered from where my identity came. I wondered how I became me, what external factors contributed to who I am and how I see myself as I relate to the rest of the world. As an autoethnography, the primary source of data will include fifteen detailed vignettes of lived experiences from five periods of my life: elementary school, junior high school, high school, undergraduate college, graduate school, and post-graduate life. As a secondary source of data, each period will include a personal photo of me from that era, and a personally created piece of art. The goal is to provide a detailed account through the use of vignettes, photos, and art to construct an ontological reality that is uniquely mine. Scholars, researchers, and educators need to move away from relying on traditional, majoritarian teaching, research, and definitions to become more inclusive in the work they produce. We need teacher education to expand beyond its current scope. Theories used by researchers are based upon ontology as we currently know it. They are created in and perpetuated by a society that is entombed in its Whiteness as its narrative. To change this, we must begin to change the ontology of the theories. [The dissertation citations contained here are published with the permission of ProQuest LLC. Further reproduction is prohibited without permission. Copies of dissertations may be obtained by Telephone (800) 1-800-521-0600. Web page: http://www.proquest.com/en-US/products/dissertations/individuals.shtml.]
- Published
- 2023